urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3 Caroline Caroline 2009-12-09T04:48:00Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:20324 2009-12-09T04:48:00Z 2009-12-09T04:48:00Z does wintertime have an effect on your mood?<br />yes.<br />it sucks.<br /><br />when was the last time you felt extremely depressed?<br />a couple of nights ago.<br /><br />how vivid are your dreams?<br />if i think about them right when i wake up and make myself remember, very vivid.<br />or sometimes theyre just some vague idea or setting and everything is just sort of floating around and its all trippy.<br /><br />have you ever been unable to recall someone's name?<br />yeah i hate that. really embarrassing.<br /><br />do you pick out your clothing the night before?<br />sometimes.<br />depends how motivated i am to look okay.<br /><br />how many times a week do you need to do laundry?<br />like a million.<br />aka 5<br /><br />how organized would you say that you keep your closet?<br />really organized.<br />if organized means random clothes, bags, and food thrown on the ground.<br /><br />how many meals a week do you eat with your family?<br />none.<br /><br />are you proud of the person that you are becoming?<br />no<br /><br />do you know anyone that thinks s/he knows everything?<br />yeah. love those people.<br /><br />how do you deal with someone that challenges your belief-system?<br />i can be obnoxiously stubborn so usually tongue vs. tongue combat.<br /><br />do you ever try to talk to others about your personal beliefs?<br />sometimes. if i think it is in his or her interest.<br /><br />what do you look for in a potential partner?<br />none of the people ive ever been interested have a thing in common, so im not really sure what to say.<br /><br />how many surveys do you fill out a day, would you say?<br />uh<br />usually none.<br />who says &gt;1 aha.<br /><br />how skilled are you are poem-writing?<br />not skilled.<br /><br />do you get nightmares from horror films?<br />i think i used to. i like them now though.<br /><br />what was the last potluck dinner that you attended?<br />thanksgiving party!<br />why are all my friends so into potlucks.<br /><br />do you know anyone who is obsessed with grammatical correctness?<br />of course. so annoying.<br /><br />how is your spelling?<br />its okay.<br />if i dont know how to spell something i look up.<br /><br />what is one vegetable that you find disgusting?<br />i like alllll vegetables :]<br /><br />when was the last time that you went out to eat?<br />hmm.<br />i think.. hunan manor with jessica.<br /><br />do you know anyone that works as a waitress?<br />not personally.<br /><br />how do you earn your money?<br />playing gigs.<br /><br />when was the last time you received an allowance?<br />never.<br /><br />do you drive yet?<br />yeah<br /><br />if so, what kind of car do you drive?<br />i dont have a car yet.<br /><br />how many pairs of shoes do you own?<br />really a million. really.<br /><br />how much time do you spend dwelling on past mistakes?<br />i dont really time it.<br />i dont have a stopwatch that i start and stop during my time of dwelling on mistakes.<br /><br />what would you consider to be the biggest mistake of your life?<br />so many good ones to choose from.<br /><br />would you shave your head to support a friend with cancer?<br />sure.<br /><br />how many words per minute do you think you are capable of typing?<br />70? 80?<br /><br />do you have a favorite word? do you use this word in everyday conversation?<br />i like the word colloquial. <br /><br />how expansive is your vocabulary?<br />its okay.<br /><br />how trusting would you say that you are of other people?<br />depends.<br /><br />have you ever had anyone abuse your trust?<br />sure.<br /><br />who was the last person to break your heart?<br />it actually wasnt a romantic thing<br />just disappointment.<br /><br />have you ever tried to get revenge on someone that did you wrong?<br />not really. i think revenge is stupid.<br /><br />what is something that you consider to be petty?<br />disagreements. dumb relationships.<br /><br />who was the last friend to exit your life?<br />i do not think losing a friend is that tangible.<br /><br />do you ever feel like you've lost control of your emotions?<br />no.<br /><br />who was the last person that you spoke with?<br />probably my mom. i dont remember.<br /><br />who makes you laugh the hardest?<br />omar khalid<br /><br />if you could have anyone as your roommate, who would it be?<br />jessica<br /><br />what city do you most desire to live in?<br />reykjavik <br /><br />what would you consider to be the biggest mistake of your life?<br />this was already asked<br />but.<br />here.<br />not doing my homework. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:20089 2009-10-24T02:35:35Z 2009-10-24T02:35:35Z When was the last time you saw someone really attractive?<br />today..? idk im sure i did i just didnt really consciously think about it.<br /><br />How are you doing today?<br />im not bad.<br /><br />Do you plan on lying?<br />not currently.. that i know of haha<br /><br />How many tattoos do you have?<br />none. not really a tattoo fan<br /><br />What’s something you’re not looking forward to?<br />hmm.. actually nothing in particular. im pretty exicted for the rest of october :]<br /><br />Is it a bunch of bull shit when people say “I have no regrets"?<br />hmm. for me, yeah. maybe not for other people.<br /><br />Who got you the jewelry you’re wearing?<br />lets see. luke, susan, my mommyy.<br /><br />A serial killer inside your house. What do you do?<br />say hello.<br /><br />Do you get scared during scary movies?<br />nope. just grossed out if theyre gory<br /><br />Have you ever cried in front of your number one?<br />ive cried in front of like half of the population hahah<br /><br />Where do you want to live when you're older?<br />older? no thanks<br /><br />How do you feel right now?<br />im alright.<br />verging on tired.<br /><br />Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?<br />lots of peoplee<br /><br />Do you like hugs?<br />sometimes.<br /><br />Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?<br />well.<br />yes and no.<br /><br />Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?<br />i know what i think i want to be. is that good enough<br /><br />Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?<br />no thank you. i look like poop.<br /><br />What are you wearing on your feet?<br />nothing.<br />scandalous ;]<br /><br />You wake up, all your hair is gone, your first reaction?<br />i would probably cry.<br /><br />The last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?<br />zero<br /><br />What is the first letter in the middle name of the last person you kissed?<br />j..<br /><br />Has anyone ever made you a promise and broke it?<br />it happens. oh welll<br /><br />Is there someone you don't ever want out of your life?<br />uh huh<br /><br />Are relationships ever really worth it?<br />no<br /><br />Do you miss your past?<br />no!<br /><br />Where do you think your number 1 is?<br />in neopia<br /><br />What were you doing last night at midnight?<br />finishing homewoooork. and probably on facebook<br /><br />Is the last person you kissed older than you?<br />no...shhhhhhhhhh<br /><br />Who out of your top friends have seen you cry?<br />top friends...wuut.<br /><br />Are you wearing something you borrowed from someone?<br />not that i know of.<br /><br />What color shirt are you wearing?<br />white. its plain.<br /><br />Where did you get it?<br />somewhere for free hahaha. <br /><br />When you sleep on your bed, is stuff usually on it?<br />always.<br /><br />What do you currently hear right now?<br />cursive. <br />except it just changed to bat for lashes.<br /><br />What are you planning on doing after this?<br />nothing :D<br /><br />Are you gonna be home tonight?<br />yeah. friday night and at home.. awesome<br /><br />Name the first person you can think of that you know that has a tattoo?<br />..jessicas dad..<br /><br />Do you slam doors when you're mad?<br />maybe when i was like 7.<br /><br />What do you want in your life right now?<br />more knowledge and more stuff t learn<br /><br />Have you held hands with anyone in the past 48 hours?<br />yeah<br /><br />Is your room messy or clean?<br />intermediate. like you can tell i just cleaned it recently, but at the same time theres random shit from place to place<br /><br />When was the last time you had a real smile on your face?<br />im sure at some point today<br /><br />Do you tell your best friend EVERYTHING?<br />not like gross things she wouldnt want to know..<br /><br />Do you have feelings for anyone?<br />ehhhhhhhh.<br /><br />Has anyone told you they don't ever wanna lose you?<br />yeah<br /><br />Is there something bothering you?<br />eh. im okay right now.<br /><br />Your ex calls you at 4 a.m because he/she needs you, do you go?<br />uh huh sure.<br /><br />What would you say to him/her?<br />hi.<br /><br />What color are your underwear?<br />tie dye. except theyre supposed to be white, i just messed up the laundry. it looks cool though!<br /><br />What's on your mind right now?<br />ohh i dont know. homecoming. <br /><br />Do you still talk to the person who hurt you most in your life?<br />i guess<br /><br />Does the last person who put their arm around you mean anything to you?<br />yeah hahah<br /><br />Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?<br />i have no idea<br /><br />Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?<br />yeah<br /><br />When your bored in class what do you usually do?<br />stare blankly, talking to michael sklar, bake a cake urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:19952 2009-10-13T01:31:11Z 2009-10-13T01:31:11Z What is a compliment you receive often?<br />you dont suck that bad.<br /><br />Do you like funny people or serious people?<br />i like both.<br /><br />Are you happy right now? <br />sure.<br /><br />Who did you last shoot a dirty look at? <br />hm. i have no idea. maybe that girl in my english class because she always tries to correct the teacher. it was unintentional though.<br /><br />Do you have any tan lines? <br />im pasty.<br /><br />Do you like your parents? <br />sure<br /><br />What was the last thing you said to someone?<br />"yeah"<br />man im fascinating; what a self-discovering survey<br /><br />How many good friends do you have? <br />a couple.<br /><br />Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone? <br />i guess. i dont freak out if i listen to them. i guess i just feel weird for a minute.<br /><br />Have you ever cheated on a partner? <br />no.<br /><br />Have you ever told someone you loved them and meant it? <br />yeah<br /><br />Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now? <br />no.<br /><br />Do you know anyone who has gotten an abortion? <br />no<br /><br />Do you like to spend time with people? <br />sometimes.<br /><br />Three feelings at the moment? <br />cold, confused, tired.<br /><br />Done anything you regret so far in life?<br />i guess... i dont know. not really.<br /><br />Are you thinking of someone right now? <br />yeah<br /><br />Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? <br />not that i know of.<br /><br />If you could have anything in the world, what would you want? <br />thats a good question.<br />to be the best at something, or to be the most important to someone.<br /><br />Is there a difference between the word 'best friend' and 'friend'? <br />clearly.<br /><br />Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone? <br />yeah.<br /><br />Who is your celebrity crush? <br />stinky.<br /><br />Who were you with last night? <br />orchestra rehearsal. and my house.<br /><br />What language do you want to learn? <br />latin would be cool.<br />or really any.<br /><br />Is anything wrong? <br />i dont know.<br /><br />Who's making you feel the way you are right now?<br />three people.<br /> <br />Do you think abortions are horrible? <br />yes. my book im reading in english is about them. really disgusting. ill spare the details.<br /><br />When was the last time you had your heart broken? <br />..idk.<br /><br />What do you dislike currently? <br />no one in particular i guess.<br /><br />Do you read your horoscope? <br />hahah no<br /><br />Have you ever smoked? <br />every single day.<br /><br />Have you ever wanted someone you can't have? <br />story of my existence.<br /><br />Your ex's car breaks down and they ask you for a lift. Your response? <br />"of course. no, this does not mean youre getting action."<br /><br />Do you consider yourself religious? <br />not really.<br />i like to study all the different religions though.<br /><br />Who is getting on your nerves right now? <br />eh.<br /><br />What song are you listening to right now? <br />ice cube-clem snide<br /><br />What's the last thing you put in your mouth? <br />soy ice cream<br /><br />Was yesterday better than today? <br />i think theyre about the same.<br />but i felt better then.<br /><br />Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? <br />no.<br /><br />When was the last time you were extremely disappointed? <br />today.<br /><br />Do you hate anyone? <br />i feel like this has been asked like 7 times, just reworded slightly.<br /><br />Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? <br />yeah<br /><br />Can you handle the truth? <br />sometimes.<br />...no.<br /><br />Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? <br />sometimes.<br /><br />Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now? <br />no<br /><br />Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? <br />i dont think so.<br /><br />How many credit cards do you own? <br />none.<br /><br />Would you rather be rich, or famous?<br />im okay with neither.<br /><br />Are you hurting anywhere? <br />no.<br /><br />Are you depressed? <br />im fine right now.<br /><br />Have you done something bad today? <br />probably. i dont remember.<br /><br />Quote a song lyric? <br />ill untie the knows with my lips and my tongue<br />and rub ambisol into your hair.<br /><br />Do you consider yourself bi-polar? <br />very much.<br /><br />Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friends? <br />neva jessicaaaa.<br /><br />Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok? <br />no.<br /> <br />Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? <br />no.<br /><br />Reason behind the last time you cried? <br />i was disappointed. and thought i meant something to you.<br /><br />Reason behind the last time you laughed really hard? <br />hm.<br />i dont remember the last time i laughed really hard.<br />thats kind of sad.<br /><br />Do you believe that there's good in everybody? <br />mostly.<br /><br />What side of a heart do you draw first? <br />lefttt.<br /><br />Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2009? <br />hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm<br />i dont think so?<br /><br />Has anything happened to you within the past month that has made you angry? <br />YES.<br /><br />Is there someone you wouldn't mind kissing right now? <br />yeah<br /><br />Are you dating the last person you talked to? <br />....that would be my dad. so yes.<br /><br />Does it annoy you when people play dumb? <br />very much.<br /><br />Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? <br />no.<br /><br />Have you talked about marriage with another person? <br />im a teenager..?<br /><br />Do you enjoy playing hard to get? <br />thats dumb. no.<br /><br />Do you believe that you can change someone? <br />yes.<br />but i dont really want to. i dont want other people to be like me.<br /><br />Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other? <br />i do not have one.<br /><br />So the last person you kissed asks you to marry them, you say? <br />no.<br />and he would never ask me that hahaha<br /><br />Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something? <br />not that i know of.<br /><br />Is there someone you can spend every minute with and be happy? <br />yeah same<br /><br />Do you ignore people when you're mad/upset with them? <br />yeah.<br />well. i try to. but i usually just give in a talk to them.<br /><br />Is there someone you'd like to fix things with? <br />idk.<br />i guess not.<br /><br />Is there anything you want to say to someone? <br />please just say hi to me. please just make eye contact with me.<br /><br />Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating? <br />yeah<br /><br />Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? <br />i wish i remembered.<br /><br />Is there someone you used to talk to every day that you don't talk to now?<br />unfortunately. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:19519 2009-09-23T02:42:02Z 2009-09-23T02:42:02Z Don't tell me lies, so where's your man?<br />is that a trick question.<br /><br />First name of the last person to text you?<br />gina. maybe luke. i dont feel like checking.<br /><br />Who was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone?<br />jason because he was lost. aha.<br /><br />Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?<br />JESSICA<br /><br />Has anyone said they love you in the last week?<br />yeah<br /><br />Have you faced any of your fears lately?<br />yes.<br /><br />Have you ever kissed under water?<br />why would you do that.. thats so weird.<br /><br />Who was the last person to comfort you as you cried?<br />i dont remember. maybe luke..<br /><br />Do you have to plug your nose while swimming under water?<br />no. i just hold my breath beforehand.<br /><br />Are you a heart breaker?<br />i dont think so.<br /><br />Do you know anyone who committed suicide?<br />yeah<br /><br />Is it ever too late to apologize?<br />occasionally.<br /><br />Do your computer speakers work?<br />like one day a year. if im lucky.<br /><br />Which friend are you most similiar to?<br />jessicaca.<br /><br />Have you kissed anyone whose name starts with a M?<br />no<br /><br />Would you kiss the last person who texted you, on the lips?<br />uhh i dont remember who it is but probably not.<br /><br />Camping with a ton of friends or hotel with a few friends?<br />hotel. because jessica's right. camping sucks.<br /><br />Have you ever kissed anyone who's name starts with P, J, R, M, C or D?<br />yeah.<br /><br />Your last ex died today, how would you feel?<br />im not sure.<br /><br />Who can make you feel better in a difficult situation?<br />my frieeends and my sisters &lt;3<br /><br />Has anyone told you they don't ever wanna lose you?<br />maybe<br /><br />What's on that way top shelf or in the very far back of your closet?<br />nothing interesting. a belt or something.<br /><br />Where would you rather live, England or Australia?<br />why did i immediately think of mk +ashley...<br /><br />When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?<br />.........awesome<br /><br />Do you fall for people easily?<br />yes<br /><br />What do you do when you have a bad day?<br />talk to my friends. or usually sleep.<br /><br />If you are sitting on the porch and see an ant, do you squash it?<br />no thats gross<br /><br />Do you want someone dead?<br />never.<br /><br />What would be the first thing you would do with 100,000 dollars?<br />i have absolutely no clue whatsoever. im used to having a grand total of like $3.<br /><br />Would you rather go to Africa or Paris for two weeks?<br />either.<br /><br />If you clone yourself and kill your clone, is it considered suicide?<br />not really.<br /><br />Have you ever thought you were dying but you were actually just pregnant?<br />all the time<br /><br />Is your crush banging someone else?<br />probably?<br /><br />Are you addicted to cigarettes?<br />not so muchh<br /><br />Do you know anyone named holly?<br />holly j. love degrassi.<br /><br />Are you upset because you actually aren't even cool?<br />ouch<br />jerk survey<br /><br />Have you ever kissed someone who was drunk?<br />this is embarrassing. yeah. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:19307 2009-09-19T13:07:17Z 2009-09-19T13:07:17Z my sweet tooth is killing me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:19047 2009-08-13T04:02:06Z 2009-08-13T04:02:06Z <a name="cutid1"></a>What's your favorite part of the song that you're listening to?<br />what i put in the cut duh! :)<br /> <br />Do you think you're a good friend?<br />right now, yes.<br />sometimes, no.<br />if you dont realize what i did for you then youre a robot.<br /><br />If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?<br />summer. definitely summer. <br /><br />Could you go out in public looking like you do now?<br />i could but um... YEAH. i look gr8<br /><br />What was on your mind mostly today?<br />a decision i dont feel like making, the two of you together.<br /><br />Do you like the rain?<br />in the morning, no.<br />but the occasional shower is nice.<br /><br />Who was the last person you got into a small argument with?<br />hmm lets see.. probably my mom. we ALWAYS fight while im driving. its actually hilarious. whenever i drive her anywhere she always tells me to go like 10 under the speed limit. im like MOM THERE ARE NO DEER ON THE HIGHWAY, I PROMISE.<br /><br />Can you handle the truth?<br />sortakindaprobsnot<br /><br />How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?<br />when it means being polite.<br /><br />Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?<br />yes. and they are my favorite songs.<br /><br />Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?<br />pretty much the opposite.<br /><br />Where did you sleep last night?<br />on my bed. backwards. im weird.<br /><br />Did you have a good day yesterday?<br />what happened yesterday?<br />sure i guess.<br /><br />What was the highlight of today?<br />baking.<br /><br />Do you hate anyone?<br />not at all<br /><br />Does anyone call you baby?<br />everyone + their mom<br /><br />In the next 5 months, what are you looking forward to most?<br />weekends, meeting new people, christmassss. idk!<br /><br />What is bothering you right now?<br />people.<br /><br />Do you wish you had the chance to tell someone something right now?<br />yeah. a lot of people a lot of things.<br />man i win the award for vague answers of the year!<br /><br />Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?<br />sean?<br />one of my parents? yeah i think so. being like RUBYY DJKGKJDSH BYEE<br /><br />Who was the last person to make you smile?<br />jessica? i forgett! QUICK someone make me smile<br /><br />Have you ever wasted too much time on a certain boy or girl?<br />i dont really think it was a waste most of the time.<br />but yeah probably!<br /><br />Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?<br />probably not.<br /><br />Has anyone disappointed you recently?<br />slightly.<br /><br />At this moment in time, do you wish you could trade places with someone?<br />yes.<br /><br />Do horror movies these days scare you?<br />not reallyyyy i love them :D<br /><br />What is the best thing that's happened in the past week?<br />maybe going thriftingg. maybe... sleeping..<br /><br />Is there an A in your name?<br />who knows the alphabet?<br /><br />What color is your hair?<br />red? blonde?<br />i have spent 16 and a half years trying to figure this out.<br /><br />What's the weather like outside?<br />humid &gt;:(<br /><br />What did you do last night?<br />went to my french horn lesson<br />worried about my friend<br />felt sick<br />LOL @ JESSIKA U USED BIZNATCH<br /><br />What are you doing tonight?<br />sleeping.. probably.<br /><br />If you could push one person off of a mountain, who would it be?<br />no one<br /><br />Have you ever thrown your cell phone in anger? When?<br />every 3 seconds of my life<br /><br />Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?<br />i doubt it.<br /><br />Do you want to fix things with anybody?<br />sorta.<br /><br />Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?<br />yes ma'am... sir... mir.<br /><br />Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?<br />i try not to OD<br /><br />Do you like red bull?<br />NO<br />energy drinkz suckkk ya hear?<br /><br />Have you ever written anything on a bathroom wall or door?<br />"HI" <br /><br />Do you blow dry your hair?<br />very rarely..<br /><br />Do you think relationships are ever worth it?<br />yeah of coursee<br /><br />Do your parents really know you?<br />hmm.<br />well. considering my dad keeps offering me pizza and im vegan... probably not...<br /><br />Are you happy right now?<br />shhh i might accidentally be<br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:18869 2009-08-08T05:12:34Z 2009-08-08T05:12:34Z what has hurt you more than anything?<br /><br />comment anonymously urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:18606 2009-06-22T16:23:31Z 2009-06-22T16:23:31Z -not everyone deserves a friend, but they still need one.<br />-you never really get over loving someone.<br />-it is entirely possible to be happy while having your heart broken.<br />-my hair grows so slow. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:18356 2009-05-05T05:42:35Z 2009-05-05T05:42:35Z if you are sane in a world of insane people, are you insane? if you love someone enough, do you hate them? if you hurt enough, does it start to feel good?<br /><br />am i bitter because i am fabricating emotions to conform, or am i bitter because those emotions are fabricating me?<br />i am always tired urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:18020 2009-04-04T18:32:38Z 2009-04-04T18:32:38Z its been awhile but heyyyy<br />i love spring break :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:17205 2008-11-23T06:19:59Z 2008-11-23T06:19:59Z i have never ever ever ever ever felt this happy.<br />i cant stop smiling. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:16982 2008-11-11T02:43:46Z 2008-11-11T02:43:46Z The Astronomer <br /><br />Ignorance through glass telescopes<br />You use to see everything but stars,<br />Jealous of the things you think you want.<br />Drawing constellations to map out<br />What you need to attain for<br />A false sense of happiness,<br />So star-crossed with your own desires<br />As the sky draws out pictures<br />Where you are a million light-years away<br />From what you can't have. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:16689 2008-11-08T03:28:07Z 2008-11-08T03:28:07Z im scared of winter; im scared these feelings will all come back to me in one, big, nostalgic punch. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:16463 2008-11-06T20:53:14Z 2008-11-06T20:53:14Z You blink and the world changes-<br />Freckles fade to stories of<br />Balance beams<br />And hide underneath<br />Layers of nostalgic skin<br />To keep them safe until<br />Next year,<br />And the sun gets lost<br />In the universe<br />While playing hide-and-seek with the planets.<br />It loses track of time<br />And forgets us like<br />A face in a crowd,<br />As we make countdowns<br />Through lonely Decembers<br />That freeze up our tired lungs,<br />Exhausted by the effort of<br />Existing without wanting to.<br /><br />Our happiness gets buried underneath the snow,<br />And there is never anyone there to help you up<br />From your snow angel. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:16057 2008-09-22T03:08:32Z 2008-09-22T03:08:32Z what am i supposed to do. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:15816 2008-09-14T17:35:02Z 2008-09-14T17:35:02Z everything is perfect.<br />and those i was jealous of are now jealous of me. theyre jealous that what i have is real and im not just hanging onto inside jokes from seven months ago in an attempt to keep a friendship together.<br />i feel like high fiving everyone and eating popsicles. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:15466 2008-09-09T00:50:47Z 2008-09-09T00:50:47Z not to sound like a character from avatar high, but my life kind of rocks as of this second. i love my friends. i love belonging, feeling wanted. its nice. someday i will get over my shyness and we will have a billion great conversations because i really like you and i want to get to know you more.<br />WTF SOMETHING NOT DEPRESSING IN THIS?! i can be normal too. weird, right? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:15297 2008-08-21T04:49:06Z 2008-08-21T04:49:06Z The Weepies i've had a good summer- went to austria, stayed up, slept in, took walks, laughed hard, cried hard, swung on swings, sat in parking lots and side walks. i wish i hadn't wasted so much of it worrying about you, but i guess its worth it if it gets us back on track. not that i want to be your friend, i just want you to not hate me. i need to move on from you and everything that's associated with you and your exclusive friends. i dont need to feel jealous.<br />instead of feeling older this year, i feel younger. i want to learn more. i want to experience more. i want to get to know you and make you smile more. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:15022 2008-08-01T18:44:31Z 2008-08-01T18:44:31Z Dear people who are incapable of apologizing,<br />Suck up your pride for two seconds of your life. You are probably more blame-worthy than those actually apologizing.<br />Much love,<br />Caroline urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:14706 2008-07-28T05:45:08Z 2008-07-28T05:45:08Z Stasis on rusty swingsets<br />Reflects this stationary period of time<br />Where feelings dive in and out<br />Like a needle pulling thread.<br />You always lost on purpose<br />On the wooden balance beam<br />When you pushed yourself off,<br />Pretending that I had any strength.<br />Fear sleeps in the white sand<br />As you steer to somewhere<br />We've already been<br />And always end up<br />In our imaginary ship.<br />It sinks,<br />But I am not worth saving. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:14528 2008-07-27T19:05:31Z 2008-07-27T19:05:31Z i need new music.<br />suggest a few of your favorite songs/bands? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:14184 2008-07-26T07:30:06Z 2008-07-26T07:30:06Z "i dont care that you're awkward. im awkward too." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:13688 2008-07-25T05:56:09Z 2008-07-25T05:56:09Z i am in love with an asshole.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />...an asshole is in love with me too. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:13562 2008-07-10T06:18:02Z 2008-07-10T06:18:02Z maybe not everything has to be meaningful. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeekx3:13090 2008-05-04T05:37:34Z 2008-05-04T05:37:34Z Eleni Mandell we are cute like a 90s sitcom. i want to be with you. i want to i want to i want to! im talking to you right now. we are making plans.<br /><br />you make me smile