When was the last time you saw someone really attractive?
today..? idk im sure i did i just didnt really consciously think about it.

How are you doing today?
im not bad.

Do you plan on lying?
not currently.. that i know of haha

How many tattoos do you have?
none. not really a tattoo fan

What’s something you’re not looking forward to?
hmm.. actually nothing in particular. im pretty exicted for the rest of october :]

Is it a bunch of bull shit when people say “I have no regrets"?
hmm. for me, yeah. maybe not for other people.

Who got you the jewelry you’re wearing?
lets see. luke, susan, my mommyy.

A serial killer inside your house. What do you do?
say hello.

Do you get scared during scary movies?
nope. just grossed out if theyre gory

Have you ever cried in front of your number one?
ive cried in front of like half of the population hahah

Where do you want to live when you're older?
older? no thanks

How do you feel right now?
im alright.
verging on tired.

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
lots of peoplee

Do you like hugs?
sometimes.

Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
well.
yes and no.

Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?
i know what i think i want to be. is that good enough

Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
no thank you. i look like poop.

What are you wearing on your feet?
nothing.
scandalous ;]

You wake up, all your hair is gone, your first reaction?
i would probably cry.

The last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?
zero

What is the first letter in the middle name of the last person you kissed?
j..

Has anyone ever made you a promise and broke it?
it happens. oh welll

Is there someone you don't ever want out of your life?
uh huh

Are relationships ever really worth it?
no

Do you miss your past?
no!

Where do you think your number 1 is?
in neopia

What were you doing last night at midnight?
finishing homewoooork. and probably on facebook

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
no...shhhhhhhhhh

Who out of your top friends have seen you cry?
top friends...wuut.

Are you wearing something you borrowed from someone?
not that i know of.

What color shirt are you wearing?
white. its plain.

Where did you get it?
somewhere for free hahaha.

When you sleep on your bed, is stuff usually on it?
always.

What do you currently hear right now?
cursive.
except it just changed to bat for lashes.

What are you planning on doing after this?
nothing :D

Are you gonna be home tonight?
yeah. friday night and at home.. awesome

Name the first person you can think of that you know that has a tattoo?
..jessicas dad..

Do you slam doors when you're mad?
maybe when i was like 7.

What do you want in your life right now?
more knowledge and more stuff t learn

Have you held hands with anyone in the past 48 hours?
yeah

Is your room messy or clean?
intermediate. like you can tell i just cleaned it recently, but at the same time theres random shit from place to place

When was the last time you had a real smile on your face?
im sure at some point today

Do you tell your best friend EVERYTHING?
not like gross things she wouldnt want to know..

Do you have feelings for anyone?
ehhhhhhhh.

Has anyone told you they don't ever wanna lose you?
yeah

Is there something bothering you?
eh. im okay right now.

Your ex calls you at 4 a.m because he/she needs you, do you go?
uh huh sure.

What would you say to him/her?
hi.

What color are your underwear?
tie dye. except theyre supposed to be white, i just messed up the laundry. it looks cool though!

What's on your mind right now?
ohh i dont know. homecoming.

Do you still talk to the person who hurt you most in your life?
i guess

Does the last person who put their arm around you mean anything to you?
yeah hahah

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
i have no idea

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
yeah

When your bored in class what do you usually do?
stare blankly, talking to michael sklar, bake a cake

What is a compliment you receive often?
you dont suck that bad.

Do you like funny people or serious people?
i like both.

Are you happy right now?
sure.

Who did you last shoot a dirty look at?
hm. i have no idea. maybe that girl in my english class because she always tries to correct the teacher. it was unintentional though.

Do you have any tan lines?
im pasty.

Do you like your parents?
sure

What was the last thing you said to someone?
"yeah"
man im fascinating; what a self-discovering survey

How many good friends do you have?
a couple.

Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
i guess. i dont freak out if i listen to them. i guess i just feel weird for a minute.

Have you ever cheated on a partner?
no.

Have you ever told someone you loved them and meant it?
yeah

Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now?
no.

Do you know anyone who has gotten an abortion?
no

Do you like to spend time with people?
sometimes.

Three feelings at the moment?
cold, confused, tired.

Done anything you regret so far in life?
i guess... i dont know. not really.

Are you thinking of someone right now?
yeah

Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
not that i know of.

If you could have anything in the world, what would you want?
thats a good question.
to be the best at something, or to be the most important to someone.

Is there a difference between the word 'best friend' and 'friend'?
clearly.

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone?
yeah.

Who is your celebrity crush?
stinky.

Who were you with last night?
orchestra rehearsal. and my house.

What language do you want to learn?
latin would be cool.
or really any.

Is anything wrong?
i dont know.

Who's making you feel the way you are right now?
three people.

Do you think abortions are horrible?
yes. my book im reading in english is about them. really disgusting. ill spare the details.

When was the last time you had your heart broken?
..idk.

What do you dislike currently?
no one in particular i guess.

Do you read your horoscope?
hahah no

Have you ever smoked?
every single day.

Have you ever wanted someone you can't have?
story of my existence.

Your ex's car breaks down and they ask you for a lift. Your response?
"of course. no, this does not mean youre getting action."

Do you consider yourself religious?
not really.
i like to study all the different religions though.

Who is getting on your nerves right now?
eh.

What song are you listening to right now?
ice cube-clem snide

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
soy ice cream

Was yesterday better than today?
i think theyre about the same.
but i felt better then.

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
no.

When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
today.

Do you hate anyone?
i feel like this has been asked like 7 times, just reworded slightly.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
yeah

Can you handle the truth?
sometimes.
...no.

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
sometimes.

Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now?
no

Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
i dont think so.

How many credit cards do you own?
none.

Would you rather be rich, or famous?
im okay with neither.

Are you hurting anywhere?
no.

Are you depressed?
im fine right now.

Have you done something bad today?
probably. i dont remember.

Quote a song lyric?
ill untie the knows with my lips and my tongue
and rub ambisol into your hair.

Do you consider yourself bi-polar?
very much.

Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friends?
neva jessicaaaa.

Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
no.

Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
no.

Reason behind the last time you cried?
i was disappointed. and thought i meant something to you.

Reason behind the last time you laughed really hard?
hm.
i dont remember the last time i laughed really hard.
thats kind of sad.

Do you believe that there's good in everybody?
mostly.

What side of a heart do you draw first?
lefttt.

Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2009?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
i dont think so?

Has anything happened to you within the past month that has made you angry?
YES.

Is there someone you wouldn't mind kissing right now?
yeah

Are you dating the last person you talked to?
....that would be my dad. so yes.

Does it annoy you when people play dumb?
very much.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
no.

Have you talked about marriage with another person?
im a teenager..?

Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
thats dumb. no.

Do you believe that you can change someone?
yes.
but i dont really want to. i dont want other people to be like me.

Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other?
i do not have one.

So the last person you kissed asks you to marry them, you say?
no.
and he would never ask me that hahaha

Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something?
not that i know of.

Is there someone you can spend every minute with and be happy?
yeah same

Do you ignore people when you're mad/upset with them?
yeah.
well. i try to. but i usually just give in a talk to them.

Is there someone you'd like to fix things with?
idk.
i guess not.

Is there anything you want to say to someone?
please just say hi to me. please just make eye contact with me.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?
yeah

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
i wish i remembered.

Is there someone you used to talk to every day that you don't talk to now?
unfortunately.

Don't tell me lies, so where's your man?
is that a trick question.

First name of the last person to text you?
gina. maybe luke. i dont feel like checking.

Who was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone?
jason because he was lost. aha.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
JESSICA

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
yeah

Have you faced any of your fears lately?
yes.

Have you ever kissed under water?
why would you do that.. thats so weird.

Who was the last person to comfort you as you cried?
i dont remember. maybe luke..

Do you have to plug your nose while swimming under water?
no. i just hold my breath beforehand.

Are you a heart breaker?
i dont think so.

Do you know anyone who committed suicide?
yeah

Is it ever too late to apologize?
occasionally.

Do your computer speakers work?
like one day a year. if im lucky.

Which friend are you most similiar to?
jessicaca.

Have you kissed anyone whose name starts with a M?
no

Would you kiss the last person who texted you, on the lips?
uhh i dont remember who it is but probably not.

Camping with a ton of friends or hotel with a few friends?
hotel. because jessica's right. camping sucks.

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name starts with P, J, R, M, C or D?
yeah.

Your last ex died today, how would you feel?
im not sure.

Who can make you feel better in a difficult situation?
my frieeends and my sisters <3

Has anyone told you they don't ever wanna lose you?
maybe

What's on that way top shelf or in the very far back of your closet?
nothing interesting. a belt or something.

Where would you rather live, England or Australia?
why did i immediately think of mk +ashley...

When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
.........awesome

Do you fall for people easily?
yes

What do you do when you have a bad day?
talk to my friends. or usually sleep.

If you are sitting on the porch and see an ant, do you squash it?
no thats gross

Do you want someone dead?
never.

What would be the first thing you would do with 100,000 dollars?
i have absolutely no clue whatsoever. im used to having a grand total of like $3.

Would you rather go to Africa or Paris for two weeks?
either.

If you clone yourself and kill your clone, is it considered suicide?
not really.

Have you ever thought you were dying but you were actually just pregnant?
all the time

Is your crush banging someone else?
probably?

Are you addicted to cigarettes?
not so muchh

Do you know anyone named holly?
holly j. love degrassi.

Are you upset because you actually aren't even cool?
ouch
jerk survey

Have you ever kissed someone who was drunk?
this is embarrassing. yeah.

my sweet tooth is killing me

( the words on the street and its on the news, im not gonna teach him how to dance with you! )

what has hurt you more than anything?

comment anonymously

-not everyone deserves a friend, but they still need one.
-you never really get over loving someone.
-it is entirely possible to be happy while having your heart broken.
-my hair grows so slow.

if you are sane in a world of insane people, are you insane? if you love someone enough, do you hate them? if you hurt enough, does it start to feel good?

am i bitter because i am fabricating emotions to conform, or am i bitter because those emotions are fabricating me?
i am always tired

its been awhile but heyyyy
i love spring break :)

i have never ever ever ever ever felt this happy.
i cant stop smiling.

The Astronomer

Ignorance through glass telescopes
You use to see everything but stars,
Jealous of the things you think you want.
Drawing constellations to map out
What you need to attain for
A false sense of happiness,
So star-crossed with your own desires
As the sky draws out pictures
Where you are a million light-years away
From what you can't have.

im scared of winter; im scared these feelings will all come back to me in one, big, nostalgic punch.

You blink and the world changes-
Freckles fade to stories of
Balance beams
And hide underneath
Layers of nostalgic skin
To keep them safe until
Next year,
And the sun gets lost
In the universe
While playing hide-and-seek with the planets.
It loses track of time
And forgets us like
A face in a crowd,
As we make countdowns
Through lonely Decembers
That freeze up our tired lungs,
Exhausted by the effort of
Existing without wanting to.

Our happiness gets buried underneath the snow,
And there is never anyone there to help you up
From your snow angel.

what am i supposed to do.

everything is perfect.
and those i was jealous of are now jealous of me. theyre jealous that what i have is real and im not just hanging onto inside jokes from seven months ago in an attempt to keep a friendship together.
i feel like high fiving everyone and eating popsicles.

not to sound like a character from avatar high, but my life kind of rocks as of this second. i love my friends. i love belonging, feeling wanted. its nice. someday i will get over my shyness and we will have a billion great conversations because i really like you and i want to get to know you more.
WTF SOMETHING NOT DEPRESSING IN THIS?! i can be normal too. weird, right?

i've had a good summer- went to austria, stayed up, slept in, took walks, laughed hard, cried hard, swung on swings, sat in parking lots and side walks. i wish i hadn't wasted so much of it worrying about you, but i guess its worth it if it gets us back on track. not that i want to be your friend, i just want you to not hate me. i need to move on from you and everything that's associated with you and your exclusive friends. i dont need to feel jealous.
instead of feeling older this year, i feel younger. i want to learn more. i want to experience more. i want to get to know you and make you smile more.

Dear people who are incapable of apologizing,
Suck up your pride for two seconds of your life. You are probably more blame-worthy than those actually apologizing.
Much love,
Caroline

Stasis on rusty swingsets
Reflects this stationary period of time
Where feelings dive in and out
Like a needle pulling thread.
You always lost on purpose
On the wooden balance beam
When you pushed yourself off,
Pretending that I had any strength.
Fear sleeps in the white sand
As you steer to somewhere
We've already been
And always end up
In our imaginary ship.
It sinks,
But I am not worth saving.

i need new music.
suggest a few of your favorite songs/bands?